These pictures illustrate a horrible and violent story that has a happy ending...well kind of...I’m not really happy about it just yet. I’m still a bit rattled.
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Okay, here is what happened. Our neighbor’s dogs got into a fight with our dogs through a hole in our fence. They chewed up Zephyr so much he had to have the entire front leg amputated as a result. Athena fared much better, only needed stitches, a shunt, and a little splint. That’s it. The dogs lived. No humans were hurt. Tillie wasn’t home to see it. We somehow have enough money/credit to get the pups fixed up and buy a new fence. Even the giant bloody smear can be cleaned out of the car’s leather upholstery.
But, it’s not really all that happened. This horrible lady whose five crazy dogs live behind me said things to me that I cannot get out of my head. They were so inhumane and un-empathetic and thoughtless that I can’t even repeat them. And the hard part is I can’t really hate her. I mean, I do hate her—I just don’t feel good about it. She is mentally ill. She is diagnosably paranoid. She is a horrible drunk—not a festive “baracha” party-girl—the kind of drunkard that slobber-rants at shadows and falls over and smells like liquor at 4 in the afternoon. How do you hate someone like that? Perhaps I can loathe her—that word is soaked in a little more pity than hate. Yes, that is how I think I will describe it from now on. I loathe my next-door neighbor. I loathe the person who lives near me permanently. I loathe the person whose house I see every time I walk through my kitchen. I loathe the person whose miserable problems have leaked over the fence into my life.
Scott says he feels that the experience made him grow, for the better. I’m not there yet. I definitely feel different from before, but it’s not the beautiful feeling of growth that results from overcoming the pain of getting your heartbroken. I don’t have a deeper understanding of poetry or art. I am not inspired to create things or express myself. I’m not a better person. No, really, I just feel like the world is a little uglier than before. Animals are wilder and more unpredictable than before. People are meaner and stupider than before. I’m a little less in control of the safety of my loved ones than I was before.
PS. Okay, maybe there is one ridiculous tiny upshot...Dare I say that Athena looks even cuter with her little pink and purple cast? It is true!